Making Twilight references was never really my intention, especially knowing how many just hate the word itself. But its hard to resist when Eclipse has a chapter called ‘Ethics’. This is where Jacob says he cannot compete with Edward to win Bella’s heart, in the famous line; “the clouds I can handle. But I can’t fight with an eclipse“. It shows how Edward’s presence completely shadows Jacob’s radiance and warmth. Edward has a far more powerful effect on Bella, and when he is around, Jacob almost disappears into darkness. However much he loves her or tries to make her happy, she wouldn’t feel it or notice as long as Edward has the ability to overpower Jacob’s existence.
I remember a quote from the movie The Holiday, when Iris (played by Kate Winslet) narrates these words in the opening credits; “I’ve found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said “Journeys end in lovers meeting.” What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said “love is blind”. Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there’s another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas’, the worst Birthday’s, New Years Eve’s brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I’ve been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can’t swallow! All the usual symptoms”.
True love is never rational,
which is why it is blind. What I learnt was this; some of us want to be loved by just that one person. No amount of love from another can compensate for the love we crave deep in our hearts. A very simple act or sign of affection from that person can do magic. The rest of the world becomes far less important when you stand in front of that person. We just want to be loved, held and missed by that person. So, when someone else comes along and loves you in the same way you want to be loved, it just doesn’t have the same effect. It’s not about how much love, but who from? When we become the ones who love another in vain, that can hurt beyond despair. Love always hurt because it is not returned. There is nobody to blame, that is the nature of deep seeded love. Whether it is a vampire, a werewolf or a human…..love works the same way.